Thursday, December 10, 2009
With your ear to a seashell.
If children will be children.
Adults will be adults.
If you continue to act this way.
I will treat you as though you're a child.
I'm sick of this.
I remember every bit of sadness you caused me.
Adults never apologize.
I remember how you made me what I am today.
But I'll forget about it.
I'm trying to forget about it.
If you insist on acting this way then so be it.
I have already tried.
But you can never change an adult's mind.
Because they always think they're better than children.
Don't they?
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Yesterday was really fun!
We celebrated Jean's birthday early yesterday, so. It was fun [:
First we (referring to Melissa, Dayna, Geraldine and I) went to Mel's house at 10.30 a.m. (though I reached at 11...) and we messed around a bit with all of Mel's wigs. LOL. Then we stalked off to the market to bakeries and see what yummy cakes they had, and we managed to get such a bargain on this whole cake! What's more, it was so yummy scrumboes. No fruit or jam or blocks of icing at all, just cream and sponge. *Sighs happily*
Then we met Jean at City Hall Interchange at about 12.30. When we were in the train, we met Amanda D.! Coincidental meeting much?! She said she was going out with Janice and Jess. Chatted for a while and she went back to her carriage. Then she came back again to ask us to go into their carriage but we declined LOL. When we got out to City Hall, Jess came out! We chatted for a while too, and she said her Louis Vuitton bag cost her $1,000. OMG. I can buy a flight to Japan with that money.
So anyway, when she left we mucked around with Dayna's camera a bit. We tried to record a birthday message for Jean, but it didn't come out very well due to confusion. Hahaha. Here's what I remember of it.
(Dayna-D, Geraldine-G, Melissa-M, Me-W)
Take One:
D: So um it's 2000 years from now. Hi Jean!
G: Hey Jean!!
W: You're probably dead by now!
M: Whut?
W: But it's okay, because we're prolly dead now too~
D: Uh yeah, so anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Rest of us: YEAH HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
D: You're prolly laughing when you watch this or something, so...
W: How can she laugh? She's dead!
G: Yeah, who's going to watch this?
D: They're going to put it on her grave!
W: Wow okay so 2, 000 years from now they'll be able to play videos on
tombstones.
M: WTF.
D: Yeah! Yeah, it's called iTomb!
All: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
D: Oh, I ran out of memory. Let's do it again.
Take Two:
D: Wait, I think I should shoot the sign first *Points camera at "City
Hall" sign*
W: So it looks more professional?
D: Yeah. Hey, we should make this like our last video or something. After
2012!
All: OKAY~
D: Okay, so it's after 2012-
W: Wait, so who's gonna watch this?
D&G: The people on Earth, duh.
W: Hello, it's 2012. EVERYONE's gonna die!
D: Okay let's start all over again.
Take Three:
All: HEY JEAN!
D: So, happy birthday! We-
W: What? I thought we were doing a video for the end of the world?
G: YEAH.
M: Whut? Okay I'm confused now.
D: ARGH BE PROFESSIONAL PEOPLE NOW I HAVE TO START AGAIN!
Take Four:
D: Okay, so it's the year One. It's your birthday!
All: HAPPY BIRTHDAYYY!
(Everything proceeds normally)
D: *Switches off camera* Okay, great!
W: Wait, if it's the year One, doesn't that mean that she's officially a
one year old?
All: ...
D: OMG WE HAVE TO RECORD THIS AGAIN!!!
All: NO!
See what we went through for you, Jean? You'd better be grateful.
Melissa wasn't in it much because she was playing Pokemon on her Nintendo DS. xD
We got out of the MRT and met Jean, who proceeded to give us a group hug making our heads knock together rather painfully. LOL. Then we walked to Sakae Sushi where Dayna made reservations for us. We sat ourselves and had lunch for quite a long time -_- Hahaha, some time in the beginning Geraldine made Jean go to the toilet with her so we could get the Sakae Sushi staff to put the birthday cake in their fridge.
When we finished eating our lunch, I was made to lead Jean into the toilets AGAIN and I had to wait for a "signal" from Dayna. And the signal didn't come until AGES after the potty break; I had to make Jean go into HMV with me for ever such a long time. Then we got to Sakae Sushi and it was great because the cake had somehow been hidden from our view until we walked right next to the table. They started singing Happy Birthday in Chinese -_- LOL.
After eating delicious cake, we proceeded to walk round everywhere basically. We also went to Plaza Singapura where we went into Etude House and I bought a powder puff for $2.90. Just to get the free pink poofy pen. Confided one of my problems to Jean, and almost cried in the shop. LOL.
When I went back home with Melissa, I told her the reason why I didn't want to go home so soon and she comforted me. Awww. Thanks :D I luv you~
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Okay, emo time.
What's the point of asking me if I'm okay? Seriously. Maybe it's that people think I'll feel better. Because I don't. Not really. I just get reminded of what happened, then I'm forced to paste a smile on my face and answer as cheerfully as possible, "No, I'm fine!"
What do you expect me to say? "No. I'm not okay." Because when I say that, I know that people won't know what to say. People won't be able to help me. People will actually start worrying about me, and I don't want that.
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I think... No matter what I say... I'll still remember...
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
*I hate this.
I hate this.
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I hate this.
I hate this.
I have learnt that you can never trust anyone.
There is no such thing as a promise. There are only lies and deception. There is no such thing as love. There are only illusions and hatred. There is no such thing as forever. There is only never.
Because of you.
I'm miserable.
Let me go home.
He loves me not.
We haven't talked in a while. Are you okay? I'm sorry that I said hurtful things to you. I really am. Let me know if you're fine, okay?
--
Curl up in the bed
Pretend you can't hear the screaming going on outside
Put the covers way above your head
But you can't breathe
You're confined
You're trapped
Free yourself
Put the covers around your neck
Wish they'd just kill you
Feel the tears trailing down your face
Make no attempt to wipe them off
Use your blanket to cover your ears
That's better
But sit up
Covering your ears with your hands
Huddle in the corner of your bed, terrified
Sit stock still wondering if it's really over
Hear no shouting and feel slightly relieved
But keep the hands covering your ears
To muffle the sounds of your mother crying.
Sunday, December 6, 2009
Let's have some fun.( ﾟ▽ﾟ)/ｺﾝﾊﾞﾝﾊ
Okay, so let's blog about something happy~
Er, let's see. Yesterday, I went with Ria to her church and her house to sleep over! Ｏ(≧▽≦)Ｏ ﾜｰｲ♪ Mad fun, kinda. We mooched around at her place for a while, until about four? Or five? I dunno. Then we went off to her church.
There was mass, and it was okay. The same as any other mass I've been to basically, with me yawning and trying hard not to sleep （￣へ￣）Then after an hour of that, it was off to this place the church people called "The Cage". It's kind of disturbing, like, who names their hang out The Cage?? Like they're all prisoners/animals in a zoo or something.
We put down our bags, and we went to buy Pocky for me (*≧▽≦)v Munched on it for a while, and went back in and they were playing Jenga o_o After that, they had this birthday surprise thing for a girl called Lynette and we had cake in the canteen (*≧▽≦) Then we went back into The Cage to do this session thing called Praise and Worship I think ._. I dunno. So we sang for a while and luckily I knew the songs because we sang them in school and I sang one of them in choir o(^^o)(o^^)o わくわく~
Then we went to have dinner~ It was in Bedok Interchange's hawker centre place. Ria and I had fish and chips. It kinda sucked though ._." Haha! Then we headed back to The Cage and played "The Strategy Game". The whole time Ria and I were like, "OMG WHAT DO WE DO NOW?! AW LET'S JUST ANY OLD HOW PUT IT HERE" and people would be like, You're gonna lose!! （￣へ￣）But we won in the end :P
After that, we messed around with the bass guitar, playing songs like Barney's theme song (What the hell is his show called anyway? In all my years, I've never known.) and that song... You know, that song... That goes like Dan dan dan dan dan dan about a billion times （ ´∀｀） Then her mom picked us up (^-^)v
We showered, played on our Nintendo DSes (I want NintenDogs!!!1!!!11!) (Yes, the 1s are on purpose.) and she blow dried my hair into stupid hairdos XD We got into bed and said we were gonna sleep and talked for about an hour, then her mom came in and said she wanted to play some Christmas music and make sure we sleep. So we were all just lying there in the dark listening to Christmas songs quietly. But when "Last Christmas" came on, Ria and I automatically started singing along. Hahaha~ Then we hunted around for "Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer". *Sniggers*
We woke up at like 6.40 am at first, fell asleep until about 7.30 (maybe) and got up to go to church. We went to serve food and it was so... （￣へ￣）Horrible. People kept buying and buying and buying and no one would help Ria and I except Lance and he looks only about 15. It's mighty noble of him, people, when there were like two 19 year old guys there who saw us struggling but just went on goofing off.
We had McDonald's (^-^)v and I had my darling Shaker Fries *Evil laughter*
I started playing Neopets again and I guess my luck is holding up, because I got a Petpet from the Money Tree!!! OMG!!! I mean, I might seem all n00b and all to everyone but I DON'T CARE because this is my first time getting a bloody Petpet from the bloody Money Tree!!!
Kay bye,
xoxo
Friday, December 4, 2009
As I fell asleep.
Hands keep trembling now. Hah. Ignore any errors in this post. My hands tremble so much the typing's gone AWOL.
愛以上の憎しみが痛い。 ★ (: Ria, it's not worth getting upset over okay? ♥ says:
*O.O
*Lol
*I can't type properly now (- A -; )
One Last Glance { W.Yiting } says:
*why??
*O.O
愛以上の憎しみが痛い。★ (: Ria, it's not worth getting upset over okay? ♥ says:
*Hands keep trembling for some reason today
One Last Glance { W.Yiting } says:
*O.O?!
*Are u oik!?
**ok?!
*see dov not
**doc
愛以上の憎しみが痛い。★ (: Ria, it's not worth getting upset over okay? ♥ says:
*I think YOU should see the doctor
*Your typing's gone all funny
*Lol!
One Last Glance { W.Yiting } says:
*dude, i'm worried!
愛以上の憎しみが痛い。★ (: Ria, it's not worth getting upset over okay? ♥ says:
*It's nothing important anyway
*They're just trembling
One Last Glance { W.Yiting } says:
*and thats NOT normal!
愛以上の憎しみが痛い。★ (: Ria, it's not worth getting upset over okay? ♥ says:
*WOW, THANKS.
(Later)
One Last Glance { W.Yiting } says:
*promise me if your hand continues to stay like that you WILL tell me and we WILL go to a cinic together
**clinic
愛以上の憎しみが痛い。★ (: Ria, it's not worth getting upset over okay? ♥ says:
*Okay but if you continue to type like that we're going to the clinic.
Hahaha.
Family across the block's arguing for the world to hear. I'm sorry I couldn't go to your funeral.
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You're going to leave me alone when I need you most?
痛いI would reply your post, but something even worse has happened and I can't now.
This can't be happening. My hands are trembling. This has to be a joke God's playing on everyone. No way can this be happening again.
Yeung Wan - Pronunciation [Yerng·One]
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